The first writing prompt that I stumbled upon was actually, coincidentally: New Beginnings. Fitting.

I am sitting here drinking my chai stressing about everything in the world. Like I said, I have lost my purpose. I don't know who I am or what I want, but I know I can accomplish great things if I set my mind to it. I read New Beginnings and clicked out of that page, onto another '365 writing prompts' articles. But that really stood out to me. Far from a piece of poetry or literary genius, my first piece of writing will be a list of goals, big to little, personal to the mediocre. How many can I tick off before the days run out.

(Don't judge me. I've been lost for a little while, very sick, and am only now realising that I need to get back on my feet and in control of my life.)

• Get a fucking JOB! You need that money to survive, and besides, all your shit got stolen a few weeks ago so you really need cash to replace all of the makeup and clothing. 
• Sell your belongings you don't want. Honestly, it's not that hard to post shit on depop. Get on it. It's sitting around anyway, and the extra cash can't hurt.... 
• Which leads me to this, money I owe. Possibly a large sum, possibly a private matter. Pay it the fuck back . By the end of this year!
• Figure out what you want to do. Do you want to write full time? If so, write. Get published, you can't dream about writing and not do anything about it. Do you want to be a policewoman? a birth doula? Figure it out, try new things.
• Take up a hobby! Do exercise! Remember when your parents always nagged you about taking up extra activities, it was for good reason. Try TWO new things and stick at it. Even when it's hard. 
• Lose weight, only a little. And preferably before Summer. 
• Become a better person, read, talk, listen. Be there for people. Try to be the best version of yourself.
• Save for a holiday, all by YOURSELF. No parents, and obviously this comes after paying off all of the debt. 
• Go to the dentist. Easier said than done. Maybe you can also save for dental fees and actually get everything fixed.
• Take care of your health, eat well, get regular blood tests, take vitamins if need be. Look after your skin, swim in the ocean, move every day. etc. 
• Write everyday. Lol. 
• Graduate university. 
• Buy a new laptop.

Might come back and touch up and update this occasionally seeing as I can do that, because it's my blog. I won't delete anything, will just add things if I think of them. This time round I need to wish MYSELF luck. Looks like it's going to be the craziest year of my life, and potentially the most rewarding and wholesome. 

I have decided to undertake a challenge. I find myself getting lost in my own life, feeling like I'm being carried out into the ocean with no control over where the tide takes me. But I want to get some of the power back, maybe call on the moon for a few favours. I am always the most scared, uncertain and depressed in my own life when I don't have a meaning, when I don't have a purpose.


So, I created my own purpose. A challenge. I am going to write something (anything) for the next 365 days. I'm not sure why, or how, or what it will be about, but it will give me something to work on, keep my creative side flowing and help me become a better writer - I hope.

This is my new goal and for once in my damn life I want to stick to it. I want to finish something. I will start off using online prompts for writing pieces and if I get more confident or have my own ideas I shall publish those pieces as well. Today is the 13th of September 2018, and by next year, I will have 365 pieces of writing published here on my blog.

Wish me all the bloody luck in the world.

L.